Portrait of the Artist as a Small Impoverished American Woman

I was born before my time.

Which is to say, I wish I was never born.

I am s. edith ware, a small impoverished (north) american woman, in my fourth decade.

I’ve tried many ways to afford being alive but it’s one bout of financial and sexual humiliation after another in this violent society that is unfair on purpose so I am going to try and draw up a safe zone.

a new religion. a religion worthy of my humanity.

I have no faith in you.

yall are my cancer.

unnatural predators

violent monsters

I am afraid of you

I am going to tell you about my wasted life. overwhelmed by leeches.

Heavy careless leeches.

And then you may understand why I need to create a safe zone.

I’ve been trying to figure out how to be of use in this world but it’s dreadful here. I don’t want to be near any of you. In anyway. I’ve been stripped and mined.

Anyway, I was thinking of making a non-profit that focuses on housing solutions. Something that would have helped me. But I’ll just get robbed. taken. set up and left worse off than before.

I am small and poor and no one takes me seriously. I buy education and they just sit there and let some random man talk about nonsense. (Quality Control)

You are only as good as the group (you can afford to be) in. (invisible Man)

Anyway, So I’ll try this way. Under the protection of religion.

I want and deserve protection.

make fun of me.

you always have.

you all seem like gross mean idiots

dorito strong bullies

violent destructive careless

thieves

vampires

leeches

draining my human life away

ghouls (is a god worshiper human?)

if so, do I want to be human? I don’t want to be a heavy careless leech reinforcing a cruel fake hierarchy. I don’t fit in with you.

Birds Beasts and Flowers Fellowship

is an illustrated guide to contemplating life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

Good Grief

I wish I never born. There’s never enough for me.

y’all are my cancer

The fellowship is named after D.H Lawrence’s book of poetry I have after seeing the Sarah Lucas show at the New Museum show called: Sarah Lucas: Au Naturel, in 2018.

Somehow somewhere (not in person) Lucas told us not to overthink so when I needed a name for the project I started reading and this one stuck because its something we all need to hear again and it allows enough room for a new religion based on sense. The human nervous system. a human religion based on the truth. and dont overthink it.

Adapting an eastern religion doesn’t feel right but I will be “in conversation” with many schools of thought as a way to form a new personal theology. Druidism is high on the list to learn about. My notes begin with thoughts from David Hume and Simone Weir. This is a way to claim my human life as mine.

Y’all my cancer.

or am I already dead and in hell?

what’s the difference? youre wasting my life.

leeches

Poverty is man-made

Poverty is man-made

This is the beginning of BBFF, a new type of online chapel that will exist as an entity dedicated to the continuous study and pursuit of human knowledge and dignity.

New info and pictures added, (and typos fixed) (nearly) everyday.

I don’t trust any of you.

You’ve all wasted my life so easily. so cruelly. I intend to tell you what I’ve seen but remembering my life is painful. Remembering my life feels like drowning, surrounded by people with more than me, pushing down me with glee. (they call it being competitive)

Human sacrifice never ended it just got hands-off. Shifts and bends against resistance. Religious violence is an affront to my human life. Religious people create a world of misery and systematic human trafficking. kings and peasants. violent gangs

You’re not worth suffering. You’re more thief than anything else.

As a kid people warned about car salesman but I see that I was sold lemons in all aspects of american life. is that all there is?

(warming up with Philip Guston)

and Martin Luther. I got 99 Problems and YOUR god is most of them. You think people should be working poor. You’re foul thinking harms my human life. The psychic harm is painful.

physically painful.

you think should I get addicted to fentanyl. Certain the drug was aggressively aimed at my socioeconomic group.

I might have been better off being a drug- addict than having all the expensive “higher education”. I am not any better for it, except my UCSD experience was worth it. I have more to say about this later. Quality Control

Announcing the

Attenborough ark

An illustrated endeavor to dream up a post-apocalyptic world for a tender-hearted humankind.

y’all ready to inherit the earth?

Y’all wanna evolve?

Landmass Materials

New Tide version

Since I can’t afford to live in this abusive and violent judeo-christian society (even working two jobs)…I’ll have to build a new world. Because just violently taking someone else’s home would only be endless war. Any human should be able to deduce that. But I don’t have a “god” in my head. I am just human. and can’t afford to live (because the “god” in your head).

(Poverty is Hate)

A trashipelago

The Ark will be several illustrated experimental land-masses made from refuse and whatever else I dream up…Dream up because there’s no real way to escape American Poverty, its seems one can just trade for a different type of poverty. you make my life hell. will death be as disappointing as you?

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